it's been a while since i last wrote anything ...
much much longer since i wrote anything much of my thoughts and experiences ...

ht mentioned something about the fact that he can't seem to pen his thoughts these days ...
i realized that most of us now in NS ... are the same ... and i'm starting to realize why my friends who were in NS seemed to rarely update their blogs ...
at the end of the week , you're much too tired ... and everything you do ...
is either mundane , classified (~_~) or just so ARMY that only guys who are in the army now would even be able to picture it or get the joke ...

realized that more and more ... the only topics i can think of when i'm hanging out are army , bitching about army , a little about cameras (but no one's really interested) , reminiscing back about times gone by or just lamenting about my almost dead social life.

most weekends , all i remember is just sleeping.
and eating. and trying to do something.
but rarely do i get anything completed.
it's as if a part of me, has died and the rest of the body just can't really function without it.
the thing is , what has changed ?

can anybody tell me ?
i personally feel that i've been smiling a whole lot lesser ,
been feeling less cheerful than i'd normally be ...
is this culture shock from being in my unit ?

i feel so useless. like as if my time and youth is being wasted away for no purpose.
and when i get home on the weekends , i'm just too tired.

i don't even think i'm making sense any more .

i need a timeout . EOY , i finally get my leave.





the time now is 4.07am.
by 7.45am , i gotta be at Jurong Camp.
reporting to my unit, where i'll be, until the end of my national service.

mixed feelings about my decision to break away from the platoon.
on one hand, i know i'll miss the friends i made in the short 6 weeks at SI.
07/09 IC2 will forever be in my memories , the good , the bad and the ugly.
i won't miss the chaokengs , the retards and the plain morons though.
i just pray for the rest of my platoon mates that they aren't stuck with them for the rest of their national service . let these fuckers go to the various coy lines and the rest of the platoon remain in HQ.

to me, life outside of army has come to an almost standstill.
i guess.
most times i come home and just sleep the weekend away.
i've never felt so drained before.
i've gotta be the only crazy person who's stressed over NS.
i think about every thing that's gonna happen , worried about what's gonna happen next.
all i want is to pass my 2 years in service peacefully.
i don't want trouble , but trouble keeps finding me.
i don't mind doing my part . but when others throw their work over . it's when i get really dissed.
it's life they say . part and parcel . yeah . i totally understand that . but , bloody hell . after a long day outfield , i'm sure everybody is also tired .
some really excel in the art of bochup.
they can take Att C and Att B to avoid guard duty entirely.
as a result , two of my poor platoon mates had to do guard duty 3 times .
majority did 1x 24hour weekend duty.
but these two poor guys did 2x 12hour duties and 1x 24hour duties.

of the entire platoon , i can say that a safe majority truly deserve to earn the right to be called trained Signallers . the rest . i hope to never hear about again .



outside army , the world continues to revolve.
without much of a regard to those within.
so many things happen.
but we are ignorant.
if only you could keep your feelings that way.

shall find time to write some other time.





home , once again .
somehow , time spent in camp seems to go by so slowly ,
and time spent at home seems to go by so quickly ...

well it's actually been a rather fast week,
most of the week was spent preparing for line-ex
line-ex itself
line-ex recovery
and the rest of the the week went by in a blur .

but this weekend will be a short one.
a very very short one.
for tonight , i'll be booking back to camp at 2230 ,
and tmr i'll be doing my first guard duty ever .
something i've managed to avoid for like since enlistment .
for 24 hours i'll be on SUNDAY guard duty .
one of the most hated days to be on duty .

but as others have done before ,
and others will do after ,
now it's my turn.

it's the start of many many duties in my NSF life .

hopefully , all goes well.



2 more weeks and we'll be through











yet another week has passed at SI,
and it's starting to become routine.

PT on Mondays , Wednesdays and Fridays.
Lessons and starting from this week Practicals the rest of the time.
Starting next week, Exercises and Outfields will begin.

Come Friday, there'll be an 8km route march , which I so do not look forward too.
But for all that , I'm starting to like my time at SI.
Nights out was something new , being able to get out of camp for even just a few hours, was quite a morale booster.

The outlook for the weekend looks good !
Gonna meet up with lots of friends !
Than book back in come Sunday at 2130.

Hmmm , nothing much to blog about cause everything is Restricted so ... Silence is Golden !
Might do an update on this weekend tmr :D


livin' for the weekends !





and so i'm back.
from my first week as a Signals Operator Trainee ...
no longer am i a recruit ...
but a trainee ...
which is basically the same thing , except that , my rank is Private !

let's just say i was most unlucky in my assigned course
and got the most chiong sua course at SI
i'm in the course that will result in my carrying a manpack radio set.

yet , for the past week , i've been studying like crazy !!
more so than i've ever done in school , or for school !!
add that to the PT ...
and i've been through one of the most mentally straining weeks in the army thus far !!

but for all that,
my bunk mates,
platoon mates ,
platoon sgt
and all those around have been great !

lets see how this course gets as we go on !





been about a month since i last typed an entry out
never found the time to pen down my thoughts

been rather busy during the last few weeks of my BMT
if i'm not out , i'm in camp
spent an entire Saturday on the 5th doing my BTP
booked out for less than 24 hours that weekend ...

time spent in camp the last few weeks was mostly spent
finishing up all PT activities,
clearing admin stuff,
slacking in bunk,
graduation parade rehearsals,
moving from K Coy to C Coy , which by the way has fucked up Bunks,
preparing for the epic 24km Route March
marched the 24k's
POPed the next

block leave has been great
really enjoyed myself , and i think i put on weight.
starting tmr , i'll be on course as a signals operator at Stagmont Camp
hopefully i'll be able to use the gym and do some OTOT !

will write more when i get the time .
i should probably start an offline journal , but i hate to write physically.






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