on this day oh so fine, the skies are blue, not a cloud in the sky.
the musics playing, a tune so fine, the lyrics speak of times gone by.
i sit and wonder, i sit and stare, i think so much, do you care ?
if you were here, if you were near, the one i hold so dear, oh a perfect day this would be.
but you're not here, you don't hold me dear, i'm one you shy of perfect.
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 12:05 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
3 weeks later ~ aiky
the cold wind blows by, a bitter chill, a calming breeze.
the wind whispers your name, or perhaps this is but a dream.
if i am dreaming, let this dream end.
if i am awake, let this illusion stop.
for too long, this dream has repeated itself.
for too long, this illusion has gone on.
i want nothing to remember, i want nothing to recall.
but nothing will go away, the memory of your everything lingers.
in an instant you'd forget who i was, in that instant i forgot how to breathe.
aiky wrote in white | 11:30 PM
Thursday, May 22, 2008
people change . overtime . or even overnight .
no reason given . no reason expected .
hell . i don't really care anyway .
or so i choose to believe .
yet if i really didn't care , would i be affected .
my logic doesn't make sense . it contradicts itself .
but whoever said life has to make sense .
the only thing is to never stop believing in yourself . so long as you know what you've done is right . so long as you have a clear conscience .
those who have nothing better to do than to be dissed . thats their own fucking problem. and if they get their kicks from being this way . i'm glad they are happy .
me . i got bigger fish to fry .
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 9:36 AM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
yay ... yet another emo post ...
how can one feel happy/pissed off/sian/i don't give a damn at the same time ?
welcome to my life .
perhaps i think too much . perhaps i never think before shooting my mouth off .
whatever it is . i don't give a damn .
whatever one does , does not need to be known .
it is at my own discretion . my own will . my way .
if you're not fucking happy . too damn bad .
have a nice day .
it's my life . i'll live it my way . doing what i want . when i want . where i want .
aiky
aiky wrote in white | 10:43 AM
Saturday, May 17, 2008
the saying home is where the heart is can't be more true .
it is only when we are away from it that we realize how precious it is .
yet when we are finally home , we forget how precious it is all over again .
such is human nature .
life is becoming more and more routine .
work . home . work . home . throw in an off day . work . home . and so on .
sure it's an experience . as all things are experience in life .
it's just a matter of what you learn and what you pick up .
and also when you get yourself together after a screwup .
somehow i just don't feel like talking much these days ... the people around me now probably wouldn't understand me ... and even if i did try to explain , they'd probably just listen to make me feel better ...
afterall , they've only known me for 2-3 months ?
how can they compare to the people i've known for longer ?
who knows what's gonna happen after the remaining 3 months is over ?
we'd probably go our own ways , afterall , our interests differ , we do completely different things and if not for this attachment we'd probably never even meet ...
in case any of you happen to read this ... which i highly doubt , i do wanna hang out with you guys but i know it's hard for you guys to find common topics to talk about to make me feel included and most times i do realize that you do try hard ... i appreciate the effort but it's not worth it ... i also know that most of my topics are of little interest and too serious for you all ... it's come to the point where i feel i have little or nothing to talk about at all ... just like oil and water ... it's never ever gonna mix well .
i guess i'm still ever the stubborn bull who refuses to change ... but thats who i am ... was ... is and always will be ...
aye ... but i'll sure cherish the times we've spent so far ... it's been a blast .
next post will prob be photos ... but no promises ... haha ...
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 11:35 AM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Watch this . Listen to this 6 Song Remix . Simply Awesome .
when my brain actually gives out thoughts that sound and feel right ...
and from than onwards it starts to go downhill and i really mean downhill ...
i start thinking stupid things , feeling emotions than i can't control ... blah blah blah ...
woke up this morning thinking ... actually i forgot what i was thinking ...
damn short-term memory ...
oh ya ... now i remember ...
i went to bed thinking about horoscopes ...
so first thing i thought of this morning was to check it out ...
maybe it's just me or maybe it's been accurate for centuries ...
or maybe the people i know just happen to be that way ...
Checked my own traits and found that their darn right accurate .
Lets start with the negatives eh ?
- Stubborn
Those who know me would definitely describe me as such . Sorry , it's my way or the highway . Of course I'm not THAT stubborn but lets call it 70% and settle at that.
- Possessive
Mmmm ... On this one I'd have to say that I'm only possessive when it comes to certain things ... Other than that, I'm usually quite ok . So not much of a trait i display . Well you could always look it from the things I'm possessive about though ._.
- Controlling
I'm kind of a control freak . I don't like it when I don't whats happening . I don't like it when I'm not in control . I don't like it when things don't go the way I plan . But you can't control everything though ... So expect me to be in a bad mood if things mess up and i'm not in control .
- Overindulgent
Wow . This one can't be more true . When I play . I play hard . The way I spend money on the things I enjoy can be described as overindulgent. Seriously . Friends would definitely consider this one of my traits .
- Jealousy
Ah ... This one . Frankly I'm a person very prone to jealousy . May not seem like so cause I never ever say it out . Except to my really close friends . And even than , rarely . This one I shall keep to myself .
- Over Self-Conscious
This trait has started to surface in recent years more and more . An example of this would be my sudden impulse to lose weight and go on a crash diet . Everyone says it's not healthy but I don't care so long as I lose the weight . Also I actually care alot about what people say about me . I may not say it but I'll try to make changes. But of course being a stubborn person . I still don't change much . Quite contradictory huh ...
So it seems there are lots of good stuff too .
Positive Traits !
- Reliable
You can say that about me. I may not be the fastest worker but I'll get the job done . And I'll get it done well . I'll be there for you if you need me . Thats for sure .
- Patient
Hmmm ... Again something I'm not too sure about . At times I'm so patient and can wait tirelessly . At other times I want my answers here and now . Straight up . So a 50-50 on this one.
- Loving
Can also be described as a fool for love . I'll do anything for my loved ones.
- Tenacious
I'm a very persistent and determined person. Once I set my mind on something . Don't expect me to give up . Even if it means I have to move mountains . I'll do it. If even moving mountains doesn't cut it . Only than I'll give up.
- Romantic
Also translates as old school . Somehow girls these days just don't dig it =(
- Loyal
If you have my respect, I'll follow you to the edge of the world and back.
- Generous
In this trait , I lack nothing . Haha . To the point that some of my closer friends are afraid that there are those who would take advantage of my generosity. Haha
- Honest
I've always believed that honesty is the best policy . My years in VS further ingrained in me the importance of integrity. However this also makes me a very frank person. If there's something I want you to know . I'll tell you straight up .
So are the traits of a Taurus prominent in me ? Are horoscopes rather accurate ?
I leave it to you decide .
I'm somewhat convinced .
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 8:47 AM
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
this is gonna sound so stupid but who cares it's my own blog ...
i've come up with a list
a list of things that makes me such an uneligible bachelor
- i'm fat
lets face it . this is like the number one reason .
- i'm such an arrogant show off
no one likes a know it all show off . if they wanted to get irritated they would go elsewhere .
- i talk too much
yeah , i talk too much , i crap alot , most of the things than come out of me are not-related to the topic and or i just go on and on and on when most people don't even want to hear anymore .
- i'm too serious
i know this one pretty well . makes me such a mood killer too . when everyone's joking i kill the whole conversation with one of my oh too serious lines .
- i've got the emotional maturity of a 10 year old .
heh . oh so true . i'm 19 . but when it comes to my emotions i'm 10 all over again . who would like a guy who appears to be 19 , but has feelings like those of a 10 ? need i say more ?
- i don't do the chinese/korean/jap package .
that is too say , i don't listen too c/k/j pop (at least not much at all) , i don't watch c/k/j drama (the one or two i watched no ones ever heard off before) , i don't watch c/k/j variety shows (the few i watch are when my mum's watching them and i happen to be around)
- i'm such an oldie
when it comes to music and movies , my taste extends back into days long before i was born ... music no one has ever heard off , movies no one has seen before ... i make great conversation with people way beyond my years based on that ._________. not very useful with the young ladies no ?
- i'm not a very fun person
because i care too much , i worry too much , i never ever really relax especially with girls . it's actually quite stressful to be around me at times ... so ... not a very fun person ...
- i'm not really a sports person
ok. that explains alot in one sentence. in other words i'm such a nerd.
- i'm a fashion disaster
i can't dress for nuts . i always overdress . most of the time i get people asking me whats with the formal dressing . presentation ? date ? no . i just dress that way ._.
i could come up with more and i prob will . but for now there are other things to do .
~ aiky
aiky wrote in white | 8:37 AM
Monday, May 5, 2008
the morning after ...
soooooo , i'm 19 ... so one more year to that big two zero ... haha ... not too long ago it seemed like such a long way away ...
so what are my feelings and thoughts about turning 19 ...
for one i sure don't feel any wiser or any more mature ... my flaws are still there and so's everything that's good and bad about me ...
gives weight to they saying , older but not wiser
Haha
Yesterday was not quite unlike any other , yet special in it's kind of way ...
I think i said some silly things and did some stupid things too ...
Is being persistent a good thing , or am I just being an irritant ?
I think too much . As usual .
Amazingly , i was actually " scolded" for not telling the other staff that it was my birthday today, they were like , "Why didn't you tell us earlier than we could have gotten you a present or something"
I was like it's ok ... Haha ...
Worked the night shift, was quite uneventful till some customers who knew me came and kept calling to me for service ... Haha ...
When they found out it was my birthday, they were also like why didn't you tell us, they offered to get me a cake from the menu but of course i turned down their kind offer.
After work went for K .
Our manager was too tired so she didn't join us , but before she left she stuffed 500RMB into my pocket and told me to have fun with the rest.
We were at K till like 4+ am when everyone couldn't make it anymore ... And they said they wanted to sing till 7am ... LOL ...
Personally i was sleeping half the time , super tired ... Mentally and physically ... so i also couldn't make it ... haha
Got home around 5am , as we were traveling home in the cab , the sun was already starting to wise slowly but steadily , basically it was already twilight , it was beautiful to see the buildings in that nice light blue sky ...
KO-ED straight away when I got home .
Right .. Now that this is done . More sleep .
thanks to everyone who sent me a greeting or any form of wish yesterday and today as well. It sure made my day =)
~ aiky
aiky wrote in white | 10:56 AM
Saturday, May 3, 2008
this blogskin and song seems to bring back lots of memories ...
of a time not so long ago ... that now seems so far away ...
when i first reached beijing two months back, i actually had the feeling to create a new blogskin two months later, the html is still stuck at the state which i left it at ...
with that project unfinished ... i can't seem to move on to another ...
hence this blogskin resurfaced ...
not that it has lost any of it's meaning since than ...
pass few days have been a whirlwind of activity and inactivity
a quick summary
Wed , a very last min notification by Mrs Sue Tan that Mrs Ong , former directior of BA would be in Beijing and wanted to meet all 8 of us interns in Beijing . So we met for dinner ...
AT OUR PLACE ... ZOMG !!!!
lol
It was great fun to meet the other 4 interns for the first time, also probably cause we were meeting fellow Singaporeans who were at our age group ... Haha ...
Dinner was great of course and we talked alot ...
Cause Thursday was a P.Holiday , we decided to meet up ( those that weren't work that is ) =x
Went Ice-Skating at China World Trade Center , had alot of fun than went for Sakae Buffet !!!
Yes ! There is Sakae in China !!!
And the good part is ...
For the price of 98 RMB ,
You can order anything on their menu . Except alcohol and deserts .
ANYTHING !!!!
We whacked the menu pretty hard . Hahaha .
After that went to Silk Street and I bought a new wallet.
After which we walked over to The Place, yes there's a place called The Place. It's a rather upmarket shopping center.
But the most important thing there is not the shopping.
It's the giant LED screen on the ceiling of the place.
Sat there admiring the beautiful animations.
It was actually quite romantic in a kinda way ... Haha ...
After that went back to outlet to meet with the other Olio peeps and we went for supper at this dim sum place .
I so miss dim sum .
Eat and eat and eat . I'm so putting on weight here lar !!!!
So it seems like my May 1st was well spent right !!
but May 2nd was boring .
I don't mind working .
But I do mind if there are no customers cause it makes it sooooooooooooo boring .
May 2nd . Boring day .
Well with a small exception.
I know I promised pictures , but i never seem to have enough time to sit down and upload and arrange them all nicely so i shall not do so ...
So keep waiting !!
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 9:54 AM
My Life
aiky.eggy
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vsChoir '02-'05
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To describe myself in a few sentences is impossible
Let's just leave it at that
Music is my life cause my life is music
The beat of the drum in my heart
