Monday, April 28, 2008
guess i'm here again ...
whats with the sudden influx in postings ...
nothing much ...
just that ...
really alot of things on my mind ...
and it's always the same few things ...
to the extent i myself feel like i'm a broken tape-recorder ...
haha ...
needa get a haircut soon ... friggin long hair ...
needa lose weight ... woots ... not putting on weight but needa lose ...
wait did i just say that ... god i must be half wasted ...
but i'm not drinking !!!!!
i used to think i got the gift of the gab ... but i've just been told repeatedly that i talk to much ...
that i talk alot of crap ... so i guess you'll hear less from me ...
ar the stupid things i do ...
somebody save meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
./end random post
aiky wrote in white | 10:20 PM
things seem to be happening so fast .
things seem to be happening out of my control .
what i planned to do .
what i intend to do .
i must rethink .
but how ?
i seek advice and get no answers. only more questions.
all i wanna know is if what i'm going to do is right ...
and hope i don't make the wrong choices ...
take a chance. that what everyone's saying.
but i worry more not for myself. but for her.
so back to the point.
how ?
aiky wrote in white | 12:30 AM
Thursday, April 24, 2008
i wouldn't even be bothered to post if this wasn't my only avenue left to express how i feel .
if you're not interested you can always navigate away from this blog. or press the big red x on the top right hand corner of this browser.
there are no pictures in this post if thats what you are looking for.
i have no one to talk to . no one i would tell or say anything from within, anywhere near.
they always say that reality sucks.
well it does.
the saying ; it's every man for himself .
i used to think that it's quite hard for a person to be that selfish. to be so ignorant.
but the truth is, i've seen it myself many times. i've experienced it. but i can never bring myself to do so.
why ?
because of who i am.
i'm a person who cares about others.
who would put others before self most of the time.
"so why are you complaining ? if you can't take it than don't be nice."
there's truth in that. but i can never bring myself to be that selfish. it just goes against my values. against who i am.
and because i am me . i will always bitch about it afterwards.
i keep asking myself . is it worth it ?
no one appreciates the things you do.
they just appear to thank you for the moment.
the next instant. they will just forget about it totally.
if only i can bring myself to stop this nonsense of being nice.
i am so ready to stop giving a damn for others and start caring more for me myself and i.
afterall. doing things for yourself. at least you know its for yourself.
at the end of the day you benefit.
doing things for others is just giving yourself extra work.
doing things for others benefits me in no way.
at the most you get a "thanks"
or "it's great to have you around"
like they really mean it.
yar . sure they do.
i'm gonna heck care and just live for myself.
afterall no one else gives a damn anyway.
disappointed. pissed. not gonna give a damn anymore.
for those who came to find pictures sorry to disappoint you
aiky wrote in white | 11:27 PM
Friday, April 4, 2008
older but not wiser ?
haha ... yeah as the title say's
thats how i feel these days ...
sure, i've learnt lots of things and experienced alot
but some things i just never seem to learn ... i guess ...
or perhaps it's just that i'm doomed to never get it right
or it's just me .
if you get what i'm trying to say . well . you prob know me quite well ... haha
damnit sure alot of ppl will say they know ...
i'm just that transparent and straightforward .
haha
that aside
it's been more than a month since i've set forth on this journey of mine ...
one month on i'm can say that i kinda enjoy life here .
or perhaps it's cause i was having a honeymoon period ...
haha ... when everythings new ... and you keep on learning things ... it's not too bad ...
recently was quite interesting though,
went through two catering events which went quite smoothly and was rather fun ...
also meeting alot of people from all over from all kinds of companies ...
hopefully i can build some good networks up here =D
than i would achieve one of the goals i set out to meet when i signed on for this attachment
mmmm
rather tired now ... so i'll post again tmr ...
but this time mostly pictures !
or so i think =S
hahahaha
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 10:44 PM
