the secret of the world ; is written in the stars

Sunday, July 25, 2010

just put the blame on me

it's really silly that i refuse to talk to anyone about this ,
yet brood over it.

truth is , even if i talked to anyone , the answers i'd get
are no different from what i already have in my head.
the answers to my questions , their all right there.
it's whether or not i choose to accept them, or act as i should.

it sure is hard to control how one feels.
theory and practical have always been very different.
it's easy to advise someone to do something.
but difficult for yourself to practice what you preach.

so i'm saying this.
put the blame on me.
i blame myself for putting my priority on you.
i blame myself for doing all those silly things i did.
i blame myself for nursing that crush on you.
i blame myself for mistaking any of your actions as possible signs of interest.
and as a friend , i blame myself for being such a lousy friend to have thought of all these.

maybe it's for the better.
maybe.

but for now. i guess i've made up my mind.

aiky wrote in white | 9:35 AM

Sunday, July 11, 2010

what do you say to taking chances ?
what do you say to jumping of the edge ?
never knowing if there's solid ground below
or hand to hold
or hell to pay
what do you say ?

i say you have nothing to lose.

aiky wrote in white | 8:27 PM

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter"
- James Earl Jones

the feelings i have inside me now .... no one can ever understand or feel
because no matter what , you can never be me ...

should i regret never doing what my heart tells me to do
or should i regret failing when i try to do what my heart tells me to do

when i know the odds are stacked against me ... do i rush foolhardily in
or do i take a step back and make an organised surrender ...

i'm tired of this game i've been playing with myself ...
but i hate disappearing without a word ...

i guess i've no idea what i'm thinking anymore ...

i'm just rambling. the only thing on my mind.

突然好想你

aiky wrote in white | 5:08 PM