Dum de dum ...
Thursday ...
Public holiday ...
Woke up at like 10 ... Thats late by my standards !
Haha ...

As yet haven't started studying for CT's ...
Should I be studying ?
Haha ...

Anyway, went with my aunties to visit my grandma ...
R.I.P ...
She'll always live on in my heart ...
Although she's been gone for coming to 3 months ...
Still feels like just yesterday she was still with us ...
Life's so different without her ...
Haven't been using my dialect as she used to be the only one whom I speaked Teochew with ...
Haven't had someone to talk to about our common love for food ...
Haven't had anyone to tell me stories about my father and my aunties when they were younger ...
The list just go on ...

Love you Grandma ...

From the temple , we went to Vivo for lunch ...
Still don't understand my aunties love for the place ...
Honestly, I think the place is overcrowded ...
But, heh ..
When the food is paid for and pretty ok ...
Who am i to complain !
Ate at Sushi Tei ...
To me it's pretty average Jap food ...
Maybe better than average ...
But thats all I'm willing to go ...
Have ate at quite a number of Jap food outlets which are better ...
Hah ...

Walked around for sometime ...
By god ...
Looking after my younger cousins is -.-
Thats why I dislike going out with them ...
But well, it can't be helped I guess ...
Kids will be kids ...
And they are kinda cute at times ...

Met HT who was at Vivo doing his own shopping for a while to get something for Liana ...
Than went home ...

Pretty much a boring day ... haha ...

Currently listening to 一千年以后 for the umpteenth time ...
Addicted to the song after getting it from a friend ...
Rather meaningful song if my chinese understanding does not fail me ...

一千年以后 - 林俊杰

心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由
爱是个绝对承诺不说
撑到一千年以后
放任无奈淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来
我的泪光承载不了
所有一切你(需)要的爱
因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头
别等到一千年以后
所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠
能有谁
解开缠绕千年的寂寞



一千年以后, 我还会在等着你
等着你 ...





Ok ...
It's Wednesday ...
Midweek ...
Midweek blues anyone ?

Didn't actaully feel like going to school ...
Except for BLAW lecture that is ...
But because someone wanted to go for MWA ...
Lugged my laptop to school ...
Got there late cause I missed the bus ...
Did nothing much except Photoshop some stuff for my website ...
Well at least thats better than nothing ...
Haha ...
Still, I better get started on the project soon ...
Heh ...

BGMT Lecture ...
LOL ...
What can I say ?
Almost everyone didn't go for it ...
Well maybe not almost everyone ...
Didn't want to go for it to begin with, so me and HT decided to take a 4 hour break and went to town ...

Went to Cine to see if there were any movies screening but it wasn't even open yet ...
Went to Taka basement for lunch ...
Ate at this Jap Stall ...
It was pretty good but the portions were smaller compared to the last time I ate there ...
The Miso Soup is still among the best I've had ...
*Note to self : Try to go in the evening or near closing time .*
Than went to Coffee Bean , got a coffee and chilled for like 2 hours before deciding it was time to go back for BLAW lecture ...


Caught a bus back to school ...
Ended up at the stop after KAP ...
Which is to say the stop at the market ...
Walked to LT 45 from the Can 2 entrance ...
Damn it was hot ...

BLAW was kinda interesting ...
Had to pay attention as our BLAW project is on this topic of IP...
It was kinda interesting ...
The other lecturerer was rather interesting ...
There were lots of spelling mistakes in his slides haha ...

Lecture ended pretty early ...
Went down to City Hall to meet up with VS Choir people ...
First one there sitting there staring into blank space was Cheam ... haha
Than we sat there waiting for the rest ...
Edmund came next ...
Than after god knows how long ,
KS and Johnnie got there ...
Jing Yuan was running late so we went to eat first ...
Of all places they chose to eat at BK ...
Not wanting to eat BK I didn't eat ...
Reuben arrived while the rest were eating ...
Suddenly my stomach didn't feel that well so I went to grab a sandwich from the bakery ...
Walked to VCH and met Jing Yuan there ...
Collected our tickets for the TPJC Choir Concert than went in ...
Meh ...
What can i say ...
Pretty sucky concert ...
Even Terry and Prem who were performing felt that way ...
Was a waste of both my time and money ...
But hell ...
It was possibly the biggest gathering of people from our batch in a while ...

After the concert , Terry got dunked in the fountain outside VCH ... haha ...
Damn it was funny ...

The rest didn't wanna go hang out ...
So just myself , Jing Yuan , Terry and Prem headed over to Lau Pa Sat for drinks ...
Or rather I was the only one just drinking ... The other 3 of them were eating ... RAWR ...
Somehow time passed pretty fast and we got worried that we would miss the last train so we left ...

Random Fact : I've known Jing Yuan since we were in Pri 1 ... Haha
Random Fact 2 : I met another Primary 1 classmate at the bus stop outside school today ...

I'd Rather Be In Love - Michelle Branch

Turn out the lights now
To see is to believe
I just want you near me
I just want you here with me
And I'd give up everything only for you
It's the least that I could do

'Cause when there's you, I feel whole
And there's no better feeling in the world
But without you I'm alone
And I'd rather be in love with you





That was once me .

Behind this mask of confidence,
Lies a mess of emotions.
Gone is the person who used to be,
Left is but the empty shell of what's left.

Now this mask is crumbling,
And emotions run amok.
The shell can no longer pretend to be,
The person that no longer exists.

What has led to this,
I wish I knew.
All that remains is someone pretending,
And his act has come to an end.

Rebirth seems a foreign concept,
When death seems the best solution.
For what is a person,
Who has thoughts but nay passion.

The passion for life,
Flows no more through me.
Thoughts form from a thinking mind,
But ideas without fiery passion,
Are but just thoughts left to die.

Perhaps there was but a beacon of hope,
But alas it has gone.
Perhaps there was but a glimmer of hope,
But it too has gone.

And so remains behind the empty shell,
That was once me.

So it's Tuesday ... 2nd Day of the Week...
Woke up at my usual time ...
Why I wake up at that kinda time ...
I blame my whole family ...
Haha ...
Somehow my family's the kind that believes that waking up early is good ...
So without failure by 6am you'll see everyone up and going school or no school ...
Which is kinda a losing proposition for me since I only need to get to school by 9am ?

Anyway ...
Didn't know what got into me ...
On top of doing my regular stuff ...
I actaully did my workshop for WDA !
Which was to say before I was supposed to do it ...
Finished it within like 10mins ...
Lazed around chillin to music for ages before realizing that it was already 8.30 ...
Haha ...
Pretty normal I guess ...
Rushed outta the house and caught the bus ...

But like I said ... I already did my workshop for WDA ...
So when I got into class at 9.30, all I did was submit my workshop database ...
And I had all the time to do nothing at all ...
I might as well had stayed at home longer i guess ...
The tutor was rather impressed with me and she gave me permission to skip Friday's tutorial cause she would just be going through the anwsers for the workshop ...
But it's rather useless since there's a make up for BGMT after that ...
At least I get an hour's break if I choose not to go ...
Haha ...

Went for WDA and MWA lecture after that ...
During WDA lecture, as usual , my laptop died after but 30mins of useage ?
Have to remember to get the ppt's from someone ...
Heh...
MWA lecture ... what can I say ...
No one was listening .
At all .

Went for lunch ...
Or in my case ...
Skipped lunch again ...
Haha ...
People are starting to copy me ...
Haha ...
It's not healthy you know ...

Went early bor BLAW ...
Set there waiting for eon's waiting for the tutor to come ...
Filled up the Serve Cambodia application form ...
Some of the stuff ...
I'm too lazy to fill up .
Haha ...
And I'm supposed to be going there for community service ...

Had BLAW tutorial as usual ...
Somehow ... halfway through BLAW ...
My mind just went blank ...
aka I went emo ...

After class ended ... I just didn't feel like talking to anyone at all ...
I sought solace from music ...
I plugged my iPod in and started the music ...
Tears by X Japan came up ...
This song is good ...

I walked ahead of everyone and took the stairs ...
They took the lift and well they reached ground floor before me ...
I watched them walk of their various ways ...
Walked to the bus stop ...
Walked passed HT and Liana ...
But my mind was just dead ...
I walked passed like I didn't know them ...
Sorry guys ...
I just lost control of all my senses ...

I guess for now, I'm just another inmature emo kid ...
Heh ... I finally said it .

Guess I'm not ready for many things ...
Given my attitude towards so many things ...
I'm starting to doubt my ability ...
I'm not the person I thought I was ...
Just a pretender who's been living in the shadows .

Closer to Me - Five

You know that it's true.
Every time I see your face I miss you baby
You know that it's you.
I want to let you know you're driving me crazy.
I'd do anything to help you to see, I don't think you understand what you're doing to me.
You know that it's true.
Every now and then I want to call you baby.
You know that it's you.
I say a prayer that you'll come back to me lady.
Oh yeah.
Life ain't anything alone can't you see you're an angel in my eyes,
everyday you're closer to me.









Right so today is Monday ...
Meh ... First day of the week ...
I'm sure everyone's pretty happy ...

Anyway, wasn't supposed to have school today ...
German ended last week ...
But I think it was for extra participation marks or something ...
Yeah it was ...
Went back to school to help be a "model" for the School of IS Photoshoots ...
Was supposed to be there by 10 but got there only around 10.30 ...
Didn't matter though, the thing only started at 11 ...
Was kinda interesting ...
First off they had us do shoots for a supposed German class ...
It's so way off from how we actaully do our German class ... but hey whatever they what ...
Than somehow I got involved for the shoot for some other module ( they were using just German and I think Self Expression : Drama and Poetry students )
Than next up was a shoot for Japanese Langauge ...
For some unknown reason they got me to pose for that with this other girl from German class ...
I had no idea what I was doing ...
I guess I was in some blur state or other but midway through ... someone said I was too stiff and I asked this other guy from my German class to take over ... Meh ...
Next up they has shoots for French class with the other people from German class and some of the SEDnP students.
And that wrapped up the shoot.
If you see that the IS modules website is filled with the same people all over the place, I think you will understand why ...

Anyway ...
After that no one was free or wanted to go out so I took 52 and went over to MacRitchie again ..,
I swear , I'm starting to love that place ...
Reached there around 1 in the afternoon ...
Damn was it hot ...
But I wanted a walk to clear my head so I walked right in ...
Took the short route of course ... haha
Well it was a one of a kind experience...
Really ...

For starters...
On the outside the only people I saw were the park cleaners ...
Every other time I've been there, the place is swarming with people ...
And for the first time ever, the only sounds I could hear were just nature and my own footsteps and breathing of course ...
And what is that so ?
Cause there was nobody inside at all other than me ...
Took the moment to enjoy the solitude ...
Saw many animals that you would normally not notice at all ...
Just half a klick into the walk and I saw a medium sized moniter lizard crossing my path ...
It sure took it's own sweet time to cross the path ...
Further on met a whole troop of monkeys ...
There were around 10 or so ...
Some baby monkeys among them ...
They were pretty cute ...
While I was busy taking my phone out to take a picture ...
They walked nearer and nearer to me ... haha ...
If you wanna see the picture ... feel free to ask me ...
At the time of my taking the photo, there were two monkeys at my feet ... Literally ...
After taking the shot, i jumped over them and walked off quickly lest they follow me ...
Along the way some a few more moniter lizards ...
But they were mainly small and medium ...
Still I bet they were as shocked to see me and as I was to see them ... Haha ...
Took the Boardwalk route back ...
Saw some turtles? sunbathing on some fallen log in the water ...
While on the last leg of the route ...
I prob got the biggest shock of the entire walk ...
And by last leg i mean the last part before the end of the trail ... Haha
Right so I was walking over the boardwalk and lo and behold a pair of eyes stares back ...
I ran ahead by 5 metres before turning around to see what the hell it was ...
Yeah ...
It was yet another moniter lizard ... But by god it's the largest I have seen not in captivity ...
Well you gotta be there to know how's the feeling like ... Haha

Caught a bus to Toh Payoh where I caught the bus home ...

Reached home ... Took a bath and fell asleep ...

Woke up around 5 and started to do BLAW tutorial for tmr ...

Did some design work for MWA ... only managed a logo before I lost interest ...

Watched another 50mins worth of The Hunt for Red October ...
Yeah ... It's a real old movie ...
But I still like it ...
Oh ya ...
I watch movies in parts so as to prolong the time a movie can occupy me ... Haha ...

Now chillin to music ...

Oh and I've yet to start studying for CT's ...
Yay me ...

Gonna go do something productive now I guess ...

Can't smile without You - The Carpenters

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh, and I can't sleep
I don't even talk to people I meet
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

You came along just like a song
You brightened my day
Who'd believe you were part of a dream
That only seemed light years away

And you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

Some people say the happiness wave
Is somethin' that's hard to find
Into the new leavin' the old behind me
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

Into the new, leaving the old behind me
And I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
And you must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you

You must know what I'm goin' thru
I just can't smile, without you







Dunno what made me suddenly wanna start a blog ...
Maybe it's cause lots of people have blogs ?
But than again i'm not one who always goes with the crowd am I ?
Or maybe that's just what i think ...
I don't even know what's going on in my head anymore .

Who know's ?
I don't .

Maybe I just need to get away from reality for abit .
But in this society we live in , it just isn't possible.
Or is it ?

Right let's not go there ...

Anyway , it's Sunday .
A day of rest supposedly.
To many perhaps it is ...
To me it's just like any other day ...
A day that I need to get through ...
And what awaits me after I get through this one ?
Yes.
Yet another day .


I'm not complaining or anything ...
Life is as good as my parents can make it for me ...
I'm just messing up my own life ...
Heh ...
As someone who knows me will say ...
"Stop self-bashing"
But I guess that's just me .

You may argue that blogs only show the side of someone that , that someone want others to perceive ...
Perhaps I'm naive ...
But well I'm penning or rather typing down my thoughts into words for the first time ever ...
Perhaps you will gain more insight into the person I am ?
Or perhaps you will change your perception of me .
I guess it doesn't really matter to me , after all , I am supposedly posting all this on the internet .

Went to McRitchie Resovoir for a walk this morning with my parents .
I'm starting to like that place.
A place of solitude.
A place where one can think.
A place where for the moment , the only people you will see ...
Are people whom you may never meet or see ever again ...
And you are just left to your own thoughts ...

Wasn't really in the mood for a long walk so took the short route.
Kinda made the wrong choice ...
There were lots of people ... and every once a while there'll be somebody who will be using his/her handphone to blast music loudly.
For god's sake .
If you wanna listen to your music , at least have the courtesy to use a pair of headphones or something.
Not everybody want's to hear what you are blasting .
As if any of those people will read this post anyway ...
Heh ...

It's already six in the evening and I haven't done any of the things I had set out to complete.
So with that another day has gone away.

It's only another how many days to CT's ?
7 ? 6 ?
Let me check .
Oh . Wow . It's 9 days .
Heh .
But what have i studied ?

WDA - Do I even know what's going on ?
BLAW - I know half of what's going ... Not a lost cause ...
MWA - Gonna go do the workshops later ... I think ... Hopefully , I learn something ...
PKMT - I know like 1 in 4 things in this ...

This sooo does not look good .

You can see why I so need to get away from this life .
I don't even wanna mention about projects at this point of time .
Let me end this senseless post now .

Somebody to love - Nelly Furtado

I don't need nothing at all
Nothing but your kiss
Nothing but your arms
I don't need nothing at all

But somebody to love
Somebody to hold
Somebody that I can feel in my blood
Somebody to hold
Somebody to own
Somebody to make me feel I'm in love

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