Sunday, April 25, 2010
time waits for no man
and that quickly , a four day break is coming to an end ...
what have i done this couple of days ?
not much of what i actually set out to do ... heh ...
promised myself that i would sort my photos out ... never did get around to that ...
maybe i'll do a rush job later ...
thursday
went for my very first MRI scan for my lower back in the morning.
it's an experience that I wouldn't like to repeat any time soon.
had to wear that silly gown again , and frankly the first time for my x-ray
i already hated it
this time was worse ... had to walk quite a distance in it ...
being loaded onto the MRI machine feels like you're being loaded onto a coffin.
and as the "bed" I was lying on moved slowly into the MRI ...
i felt a sudden panic attack and extremely claustrophobic ...
i calmed myself down my thinking happy thoughts ...
and tried to fall asleep ...
but just as i was about to fall asleep , the sound of drills and other construction equipment filled my head . through the ear plugs ... and when i opened my eyes , all i saw was the top of the MRI machine less than 3 inches from my face ...
eventually i managed to drift back to sleep and before i know it , the scan was over ...
it sure felt like forever ...
later that afternoon , went for an interview at SIT for the UNLV course , Hotel Administration.
on a side note , i'd just like to say , i'm glad that my friends think i'm good enough for SMU , but alas i didn't apply this year .
anyway , felt the usual interview panic , but after it started , everything was easy .
after so long away from the academic world , it felt good to be intellectual again .
in comparison to the SMU interview for Social Science i took last year , SIT's interview was much much easier and alot less stressful.
it was a group interview and the other candidates i felt were all rather unsure of themselves , or to put it simply i was overly confident.
not sure if i'll get the offer , but if i do , it's NUS vs SIT.
much debate with my friends over the choice i should make , but the NUS course i have right now , is hardly what i really what. the UNLV@SIT course is much closer to what i'd like to do.
had i applied for and gotten SMU ; SMU vs SIT would be a very very touch decision.
but heh, for the heck of it , i'll just apply SMU next year.
went home and for the first time in close to a year ?
i cooked dinner , grilled chicken and minced meat with tofu .
and my mum cooked the vege's cause vege = not my thing.
friday
went to catch My Rainy Day's at Cine with SJ .
quite a good movie , but most of you people are just gonna say it's not something you wanna catch ... i'm just the hopeless romantic and i enjoyed it <3
was supposed to go shooting after that , but it rained in the evening .
again ... the weather's been hopelessly rainy these days , and humid as hell ...
and it always doesn't rain when i'm not in the mood to head out to shoot ... grrrrrr
saturday
hanged out with ks and johnnie
was supposed to go bowling , but we didn't.
ended up doing nothing much the entire day , except move from one place to another
we did catch The Bounty Hunter , it was ok la. way better than the average chick flick.
chilled at Cafe Cartel till they chased us out .... heh
sunday
lazed around.
'nuff said.
partially reviving my blog , shall blog when there's something to blog.
aiky wrote in white | 5:23 PM
Friday, April 23, 2010
fool again.
really it's no one's fault.
life's just like that.
it's just me. as my 21st approaches. i look back at this life i've led.
i've got nothing much to show for it.
my studies haven't been fantastic.
i never did get around to losing as much weight as i wanted to.
i've made friends but really how many ?
a handful. most are just aquaintences.
my dreams ? frankly, i never dreamed much when i was younger.
while others have always dreamed of a future job as something.
i can't even look beyond the next few months.
my love life ? it's been a series of infatuations that i take FAR FAR too seriously.
the hopeless romantic ? think that's me.
i never give up. and i just end up making a fool of myself time and again.
as a good friend puts it.
"what stupid "i don't care what's gonna happen i'm going to do it anyway " thing did you do this time"
well , i haven't done anything of that sort recently , just too tired of trying even.
but hey , if i do , i'll always let you know.
拿得起就要放得下
i must start to put certain things down.
before i drown myself in emotions i can't control.
maybe i'm on too negative a note today. maybe.
haven't been feeling at ease with myself.
the inner peace i had a month ago just disappeared.
aiky wrote in white | 8:31 AM
Friday, April 9, 2010
if we ever meet again
totally addicted to that song man !
the music , the beat and the lyrics.
wonder when will i start to tire of this song ... LOL
ok , back to life.
been one of the slackest periods of my NS life so far .
but it's not gonna last ... cause ...
June till Sept's gonna be like hell ...
but heh , from now till June it'll be awesome !
got a new laptop recently , totally awesome speed ; or rather in comparison to my old one yeah
can so totally game again , realized the reason i stopped gaming was cause my old laptop couldn't take it at all lar ...
now doing photos in photoshop and lightroom are a breeze , but i end up gaming anyway ... :x
have been on and off about my photography , always wanna do it , but either don't have the inspiration for it or just too tired to head out ... so totally looking for people to shoot with !!
looking forward to meeting up with friends in the coming weeks , realized we meet up more often these days but we think it's furthur apart ?
used to be we meet like once every couple of months now it's every 1 or 2 months and we think it's far apart ... we must be getting older ... which we are =/
i made some realizations in the past few weeks that i guess , everyone's been trying to tell me forever ... but things like this , you only realize when you do realize it.
otherwise it's like it never happened.
first hand experience is still the best way to learn.
i realize i'm being vague , but if you're still reading this , you probably know what i'm talking about ... so yeah ... hehe
and oh , since you're here , do take a look at my photoblog and let me know what you think huh !
http://mypicturesmynotes.blogspot.com/i'll never be the same again
aiky wrote in white | 7:31 AM
