Wednesday, October 31, 2007
a growing distance | a cherished memory - aiky
distance distance
as it grows larger larger
the gap widens widens
soon it'll be but a memory
just a memory
cherished though it'll be
of times when all was oh so well
memories are just that
of times gone by
never to come again
but they live on forever in our heart
forever and ever
till the end of time
and i'll just cherish the times that have passed me by
if letting go were so easy , it wouldn't have been worth holding on to
aiky wrote in white | 10:09 PM
Heh ...
Funny reason to be awake ...
Was actually sleeping ...
Than it started raining and I just woke up ...
Nice rain ...
Cooling ...
I just wanna go back to sleep and never wake up ...
Till all my sleep debts are paid off ...
Till all my worries and doubts go away ...
And I feel ready to handle everything again .
Yeah Right .
Wishful thinking .
There's still school later .
I'm damn tired .
Haven't had a good night's sleep these past few days ...
I wake up feeling more tired than when just before I slept ...
Got some stuff I wanna do .
And I'm going to clear them asap .
Man oh man ...
What a song to have come onto my playlist now ...
Dreaming of You - Selena .
A beautiful song .
aiky wrote in white | 1:15 AM
Monday, October 29, 2007
New Blogskin .
Or rather modified .
But same mood .
So what's the difference ?
Can't seem to escape from this emotion .
Guess it's just my luck .
Someone help me .
my heart did time in Siberia
was waiting for the lie to come true
'cause it's so dark and mysterious
when the one you want doesn't want you too
aiky wrote in white | 9:58 PM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
reflection -
the act of examining one's past actions and words , to learn from mistakes as well as things that went right ...
Been doing lots of that recently , still searching for an answer ...
Of course there won't be an answer , after all it's a lifelong journey ...
But I kinda made up my mind on certain things ...
It's time to leave some things behind ...
No point pursuing things that are not meant to be ...
No point caring about things that no longer affect me ...
No point bothering about things that I can't change ...
No ... I'm not giving up .
I'm just changing my focus .
I'd like to say I gave my best shot to everything I've done ...
But I'd be lying if I said so ...
At the very least , I can say that I gave everything a try ...
And it's not always up to me that things should work out ...
So ... I'm gonna leave this all behind ...
Life is still out there ...
I'm what ?
18 ?
I've still got a long way ahead of me ...
More roads to walk
More to experience
More trials and tribulations
More joy and happiness
More grief and sorrow
What's gone by is but a small taste of things to come ...
And I welcome everything I've experienced ...
For everything no matter whether it caused grief and sorrow or joy and happiness;
Is a lesson unto itself .
Cliché as that sounds, it's true .
And while on the note of cliché;
Cliché things work.
That's why they're used.
If you can't do it.
Don't call it cliché.
Cause you can't do it.
Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon. They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never ever the same. - Unknown
aiky wrote in white | 9:24 PM
Friday, October 26, 2007
I figured that I've more or less come to terms with myself ...
I should follow what my head says ...
As a friend said ...
"what can you emo about
ur studies and family are doing fine
nothing much for a teenager to emo about
other stuff are unnecessary"
I guess these words hit something within .
That they are somewhat true makes it all the more close to home.
People have been telling me for years ...
That I'm too trusting . That I'm too nice . That I care too much about others .
I guess that's true .
And I always thought that it was a good thing .
After all what goes around comes around .
That one day , I'll get what I should .
But people just take advantage of this .
I'm sick and tired of giving out my trust .
I'm sick and tired of giving of being nice .
I'm sick and tired of caring too much .
In this world . Nothing is certain .
It's a dog eat dog world .
And it's every man for himself .
So why the fuck should I care about the rest .
So why the fuck should I bother about anything that's not my concern .
As far as I'm concerned .
It's me i should be bothered about .
Everyone else not important enough can just fuck off .
Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer. - Sun Tzu in The Art Of War
aiky wrote in white | 10:57 PM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
does it even matter ?
As I ponder ponder in my mind ,
About thoughts wondering wondering .
I grasp them with the faintest of holds ,
But lose them with the barest of touches .
I wonder who you're thinking of .
I wonder what's on your mind .
Should I even be thinking of you .
Are you even thinking of me ?
Does it matter at all ,
What I even think .
Perhaps to me it does ,
But to you does it at all ?
Many questions unasked ,
Many questions unanswered .
Maybe silence is the answer
And I may never know at all .
It sucks to been in this frame of mind , this state of emotion .
Again .
Why does life treat me so .
Am I asking for too much ?
Perhaps I am asking for too much .
But .
All I want is just to get on with my life .
I pray for the strength to go on .
aiky wrote in white | 9:29 PM
follow thy heart or follow thy mind
where one leads the other will not follow
choose between them i cannot
why must heaven treat me so
aiky wrote in white | 4:37 PM
Monday, October 22, 2007
Been rather busy lately ...
So much so that I just wanna stay at home and sleep ...
Or maybe it's just the weather ...
Spent Sunday packing my stuff ...
With lots of help from my Mom and Dad
Threw lots of stuff away ...
"Found" many things ...
Took a nice trip down memory lane ...
VS . VS Choir .
Good ole times .
Found that water bottle I got on Graduation Day from VS .
The one with every single one of our names on it .
I wonder who has used it yet .
I just hope the thing doesn't fade ...
Flipped through old copies of Victoriana and all the events that happened in VS .
Flipped through 4 Years of School Magazines .
Felt like I was right there ...
The memories will last forever ...
But I shall leave that for another time ...
Found my old scores , the well used sheets of music from which we learned many a song .
Songs that even though sang so long ago ...
Still echo through my mind ...
As I read the words and hummed the melodies ...
I can hear the choir singing ...
It's as if I'm back right there in the middle of it all ...
I really miss those days ...
What I would give to just relive my choir days again ...
If only for a day ...
To sing with my seniors , my peers and my juniors ...
Today spent most of the day at home ...
Slacking ...
Met Charles in the evening at MacRitchie ...
Yes ... I went jogging =D
Haha
After that walked to J8 ...
Yes ... WALKED !
Than waited for Hsein Tze .
For what seemed like forever .
Talked about lots of stuff with Charles .
Lots of things to learn and not learn from him .
Haha ...
We talked over dinner and after ...
Seemed to be doing lots of talking ...
LOL
Talked until my mom called me to go home =x
Haha ...
Can't blame her ... School's started already ...
And today's Monday ...
Haha ...
Well Cheerios
: )
aiky wrote in white | 10:51 PM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
This post will consist of 3 parts cause I've been too lazy to blog about past events that I'm just putting the important stuff across ... Or so i think ... Haha ...
A quick rundown on what has happened to my laptop .
For those too lazy to click the image for a larger view I shall be nice and type out what the form says =pReported Symptoms :
1: OS can't load
2: Optical drive can't eject
3: Bluetooth can't work
4: Battery can't charge
5: System auto-shutdown
6: Left touchpad button loose.
Repair Actions : ( This is the good part =x)
Replace Hard Disk .
Replace Fan Module .
Replace Optical Drive .
Replace Battery .
Clean Heatsink .
Reload OS .
Reapply Thermal Paste/Pad .
Update BIOS and KBC firmware .
Rework TouchPad .
Cool huh ? Imagine if it wasn't under warranty =x
Now my laptop runs super smoothly and hasn't overheated since I got it back on Thursday ! : )
Next !
My parents came back from Hong Kong yesterday and on top of the Krispy Kreme and some other stuff ...
My Dad got me this !!!
Holy Crap !!! That's a Tag Heuer Indy 500 !!!I really didn't expect this !!
Mom and Dad , Thank You soooooooo much for all the stuff you've bought for me !
Although I don't think you'll ever see this .
Love ya both lots =D
Next !!!
Right ...
Today went to meet up with Zhi Xiong , Roy and Jeremy ... If you don't know them , you probably knew me after 2005 or are not from VS Choir and bleah ... What am I saying ? Haha !
Anyway they're my choir seniors and so anyway ya ... back to the point ...
Met up with them for lunch ...
Had Kushinbo at Suntec .
Yes it's that Japanese Buffet at Suntec .
And as a tradition , we were the first one's in and almost the last one's out xD
Food was quite good and we ate our fill ... Actually more =x
I feel so sinful after eating so much !!
And what a hole in our wallets it burned .
It came to $32.70 per person . Ouchies !
After that we walked around and around looking at nothing in particular .
Went over to Marina to see what movies there were to watch but nothing seems to be nice ...
There doesn't seem to be any nice movies this period of time .
Sidenote : Brothers ( Yes it's a chinese movie ) is a very good show , you should go catch it ! Caught it last week with Wei Jie and Theodore before Theodore enlisted ... But that's another story ... Haha ...
Anyway back to today ... after that walked around ... walked back to City Link than Jeremy left ...
The 3 of us left than went over to Funan to look at DS and Games .
After a while got bored and decided to head over to Sim Lim Square cause I wanted to get my hard disk .
Roy was tired so he went of first .
So anyway walked over to Sim Lim Square and had a good talk with ZX ...
Was talking with him about lots of stuff while shopping for my hard disk ...
But lets leave that aside shall we ?
Anyway , walked round and round looking for this elusive hard disk ... Wonder why not many shops stock Seagate's FreeAgent 3.5" External Hard Disks ...
Most of the shops quoted me a price of $240 . One shop even quoted me $279 .
For a FreeAgent mind you . Not a FreeAgent Pro leh !
Anyway , ended up at my favourite shop where they sold it for only $219 !
Yeah Baby Yeah !!!! 500 Glorious Gigabytes !! *Although technically I only get 465 GB*
This things is huge !! And it requires an external power source !!!!!
It's almost 1/3 the size of my laptop !!!!Won't have to worry about storage space for quite some time !
Haha !
Had a great few days !
And for those wondering ... I've installed all my software needed on my laptop already .
Yes . That means SQL , Visual Studio and the works xD !
Catch ya all later
: )
aiky wrote in white | 12:27 AM
Friday, October 19, 2007
I believe they say a picture tells a thousand words : )
Aiky <3 Krispy Kreme !!!
Muhahahahahaha !!! ^^
Anyway my parents are back from HK and hence the donut windfall ...
That's nearly a hundred bucks in donuts there ... Yes that's SGD bucks !!
I'm only getting a box or two ... So who should I give ? xD
It's gonna be a tough choice =x
aiky wrote in white | 11:55 PM
Unheard Melody - aiky
At the stroke of midnight
A melody is heard
The strike of the right cords
The hitting of the right notes
The music sounds oh so right
A beautiful piece of music
A heart-wrenching piece
A piece so sorrowful
All becomes clear
All is seen for what it is
The unknown becomes known
The moonlight shines on
The stars they blink
The pianist plays on
His heart-felt melody
His passionate playing
His overwhelming desire
Fills the lonely night
The cloudless sky
The silent earth
But no one will ever hear this melody
For his soulful melody
Falls on deaf ears
Ears that could never appreciate
The beauty behind his passion
The truth beneath the surface
But still he plays on
Perhaps one day they will listen
perhaps
aiky wrote in white | 9:04 AM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Still lots of things going through my head ...
Still can't get them sorted out ...
Beginning to think through them ...
Things are starting to clear a little ...
And I'm starting to get my focus back ...
Or at least part of it ...
But at least it's a start ...
Have been under-performing for the whole of this year ...
And I know it .
I'm more than able to achieve better things for myself .
And I should just do it .
Enough with all this fooling around I say .
Slowly and surely moving on .
The only way from here is forward .
aiky wrote in white | 11:24 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Heh ... Haven't really been updating much ...
Lots of things to write about ...
Lots of things to not write about ...
The semester has started ...
But , I somehow don't feel any difference ...
My mind's still not at peace ...
My thoughts are strewn all over and I don't know if I'll be able to collect them back ...
What's happened to me ?
Supposedly only I myself will know ...
But I really don't ...
I've got many things I wanna do ...
But I've not had the heart to do it ...
I started writing many things only to stop halfway ...
I've left so many things incomplete ...
I'm just so so tired ... And I don't know why .
I'm just so lost .
It's really amazing when two strangers become the best of friends but it's really sad when the best of friends become two strangers . - Unknown
aiky wrote in white | 10:16 PM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Late In The Evening - aiky
It's late in the evening ,
The world around us ,
Is coming to a slow .
The stars are shining brightly ,
And the moon , it glows .
With you right here with me ,
Girl , it's perfect .
We'll look at the beautiful night sky ,
And watch the world pass us by .
And as dusk turns to dawn ,
Knowing that we're beside each other ,
Slowly we fall asleep .
Knowing it's not a dream ,
Girl , it's perfect .
aiky wrote in white | 10:26 PM
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Yes , I'm back !
Missed me ?
Haha ...
I miss Cambodia already ...
The simple life ...
The children and people who have touched my life ...
The food =x
The memories ...
The many lessons learnt , I will hold close ...
The many friendships built , I will cherish ...
The experience gained , I will reflect ...
More words can't explain the feelings within ...
aiky wrote in white | 8:08 AM
