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Saturday, June 9, 2007

End of CT's Day + 1

Right ...
Today ... Would be the most boring day in living memory that I can think of ...
It simply redefines boredom ...
Or shall I say : Today , I redefined boredom .

Woke up at 9am ...
Got bored ...
Went back to sleep at 9.30am ...

Woke up at 12pm for lunch ...
Read about a hundred pages of Rainbow Six after lunch ...
Didn't have the mood to read anymore ...
By the way ...
I've read Rainbow Six more than 10 times already .

Went to sleep again after that ...
Woke up at around 4pm ...

Played Gears of War with my bro on the 360 ...
Finally finished the darn game ...
On wimp setting ...
LOL ...

Went back to sleep again ...
Notice how bored I am to keep falling asleep .
I blame the weather actaully ... Lalalala

Woke up for dinner at around 7 ...
Didn't eat much ...
Not much appetite these days ...

Was bored so started to call people to chat ...
Couldn't seem to keep up a good chat with anyone ...
Bleah ...

Seems like everyone else has something to do except me ...
Feel so useless ...
I should really go do something useful ...

All I can think about these days are Me Myself and I ...
I seem to forget about the people around me ...
I seem to forget that I'm not the only one who is living on this Earth ...
I seem to forget that ... Life is not about oneself ...
Life is about caring about those around oneself ...
I seem to forget that ... Life goes on with or without me ...
That I should be the one who moves along ...
I'm not some young inmature kid anymore ...
Yet ... I still think like one ...
I still behave like one ...
Maybe that's why ...

I should starting thinking more for those around me ...
My family ...
My friends ...

Instead of always turning to them when I have problems ...
And in turn making them worry for me ...
When they themselves have their own problems ...

Everyone has their own set of problems ...
I have no right to cause more problems for anyone ...

Perhaps with this realization ...

I can become a much better person ...

I want to become a much better person ...

For myself as well as for those around me ...

To the person who has had to bear most of my complaints and all ...
Man ...
I really appreciate the fact that you're there for me ...
But I guess from now on ...
It'll be best if I take care of my own problems ...
If I have to make mistakes ...
I'll just have to take them in my stride ...
Than perhaps ... I can be the best that I can be ...
The me I always wanted to be ...

Thank you to everyone who has ever stood by me , still stand by me or will stand by me in the future .

Thank You For The Music - Abba

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I’m singing
Thanks for all the joy they’re bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

: )

Thank You For The Music ! For Giving It To Me !

aiky wrote in white | 11:37 PM