the secret of the world ; is written in the stars

Thursday, April 24, 2008

i wouldn't even be bothered to post if this wasn't my only avenue left to express how i feel .

if you're not interested you can always navigate away from this blog. or press the big red x on the top right hand corner of this browser.

there are no pictures in this post if thats what you are looking for.

i have no one to talk to . no one i would tell or say anything from within, anywhere near.

they always say that reality sucks.

well it does.

the saying ; it's every man for himself .

i used to think that it's quite hard for a person to be that selfish. to be so ignorant.
but the truth is, i've seen it myself many times. i've experienced it. but i can never bring myself to do so.

why ?

because of who i am.
i'm a person who cares about others.
who would put others before self most of the time.

"so why are you complaining ? if you can't take it than don't be nice."

there's truth in that. but i can never bring myself to be that selfish. it just goes against my values. against who i am.

and because i am me . i will always bitch about it afterwards.

i keep asking myself . is it worth it ?

no one appreciates the things you do.
they just appear to thank you for the moment.
the next instant. they will just forget about it totally.

if only i can bring myself to stop this nonsense of being nice.

i am so ready to stop giving a damn for others and start caring more for me myself and i.

afterall. doing things for yourself. at least you know its for yourself.
at the end of the day you benefit.

doing things for others is just giving yourself extra work.
doing things for others benefits me in no way.
at the most you get a "thanks"
or "it's great to have you around"
like they really mean it.

yar . sure they do.

i'm gonna heck care and just live for myself.

afterall no one else gives a damn anyway.

disappointed. pissed. not gonna give a damn anymore.

for those who came to find pictures sorry to disappoint you

aiky wrote in white | 11:27 PM