Wednesday, July 30, 2008
i wanna know what love is
music is my life and my life is music .
so what am i listening to now ?
love songs .
they give you a sort of fuzzy feeling inside .
sadly they're all i got .
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
i know you can show me ~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 12:02 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
travelling plans ?
alright ... so with this attachment coming to an end soon ...
it's time to make plans ...
one thing for sure is i'm not going back home that fast ...
like i said previously , i'm not homesick ... not that i don't miss home lar ...
but i'll be heading home soon anyway ... so hey ... don't miss me so much ok =p
wanna do some exploring around ...
so many sights in beijing i haven't seen ...
yeah ... i've been here for nearly 5 months and i haven't exactly seen much ...
i wanna go to some other cities ... check out other sights ...
while most others have travelled out of their fixed locations,
i don't even have the time to get out into the suburbs of beijing even ...
so i'd like to take this time to get out for a bit ...
but ... i'm limited but the one magic thing i lack .
$.$
so i'm not sure where i can go ...
or what i'll do ...
in other news ...
poor nick ...
he missed his train for shanghai last night ...
and it was soft bunk ticket too ...
we got it changed to a later train ...
but it was a standing ticket ...
i'm not sure if it's really a standing ticket ...
i mean it's a friggin 12 hour train ride ...
do people actaully stand for 12 hours ...
hope he's alright ...
hmmm ... i'm not sure if i got anything else to say ... so i'll just stop
~ aiky
aiky wrote in white | 9:08 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
and you wonder why ...
why ?
why bother ?
why care ?
humans are the most selfish creatures on god's green earth .
most of the time everyone does things only cause it benefits oneself .
afterall why would anyone do something for someone else when one doesn't benefit at all .
or worse one actually has to sacrifice something for someone
else's benefit .
is it in the belief that it's all for the better ?
that good begets good .
or is it because those of us are just more silly and more naive than most.
why can't anyone accept the fact that . there are actually nice people out there ?
that someone is actually nice because that person is nice ?
people don't think like that anymore.
they think that beneath the surface, is a myriad of lies and deceit.
that if someone does something , there must be a motive or some kind of motivation behind it.
people are thinking so much over what is
essentially just a simple gesture, a few kind words, a considerate thought.
if only people thought like they used to .
when there was no politics involved .
when you don't start questioning a person's motives for doing what he does.
huh . i guess if you've read to this point . you'll get the message .
stop ovethinking things. take a step back . take a deep breath . and just accept whatever comes.
/end ramble
whatever will be , will be. but i wouldn't trade the times gone by for anything in the world.~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 9:53 AM
Monday, July 21, 2008
all out of love ...
time . chances . luck . opportunity .
and so forth .
i'm all out .
time just passes by and all i've accomplished is nothing .
so so tired . so so fatigued .
i don't have the strength to just shrug everything off anymore .
like it really doesn't matter .
cause it does .
i just shut down .
i don't want to feel anymore .
i don't want to think anymore .
whatever comes . just let it come .
i'm so lost as to what i really want anymore .
i'm so lost as to what i really feel anymore .
i've been on top of the world.
and the only way from there is down.
no excuse for the way i treat those around me . but i'm sorry .
speaking words of wisdom , let it be .~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 9:30 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
round and round till it hurts
with each passing day ...
i think through the same thoughts ...
i get different answers ...
wait ... scratch that ...
i think i just rephrase my answers ...
haha ... rephrase ...
thats how we used to copy answers and not get caught by "rephrasing"
this and that becomes that and this ...
the only difference is that one was once before the other and now its behind the other
how many ways can you answer a set of questions ?
the answer is simple . as many people as you ask the same set of questions.
the next question would than be . whose answer is correct ?
the answer to that question is : everyone's .
there is no right or wrong in life .
only perceptions and beliefs .
than . why do i feel the way i do ?
is it because of the way i choose to think ?
or is it just simply because i cling on stubbornly to my own set of beliefs and thoughts.
why do i feel that it's my fault ?
is it because i stubbornly refuse to yield ?
why do i care so much ?
is it because i think she's worth it ?
why do i love her ?
because i think she's the one.
moving on to other stuff ,
i'm still thinking of what to do and where to go after this attachment is over ...
so many things to do , so many places to go , so many things to see .
my only limitation is $.$
i'm so broke now ... not to mention my poor poor poor attachment pay ...
haha ...
than there's the issue of reports and stuff that need to be done .
not to mention a few things i wanna do for myself .
lots of things i wanna create , but just can't find the inspiration.
i've got the outline but no filling .
actually that kinda summarizes how i feel in a nutshell .
woooooo . random random blogpost .
if you can tell me what this was all about i'll give you a
COOKIEEEEEEE !!!
one whacked out aiky signing off
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 8:52 PM
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
i don't think i miss home at all [part I]
it seems like only yesterday , that this all started
that we just met each other ,
that we embarked on this journey far from home ,
that we met new friends ,
that we embraced this culture so foreign to ours
and it's all coming to an end ...
suddenly ,
i don't feel like i really miss home ...
sure ,
i miss my family,
my friends,
the food =p
but,
i've been in constant contact with them all
through instant messaging ,
sms , phone calls , emails and the like ...
so it's not like
i've not spoken to them in forever ...
the food, well it's not like the food here is horrible or anything,
in fact it's been interesting to try all the various things they have here,
new ways to enjoy the same things, new flavors, new experiences.
and when you really miss food from home,
there are plenty of options to choose from,
with Singaporean companies going into China ,
BreadTalk has numerous outlets here ,
i saw a
ToastBox last night at
Xidanthere's
PrimaTaste ( although not that great, it's still passable)
there's so many other places where you can get South East Asian food,
and in a nutshell ,
that's what Singapore food is all about ...
sure ,
home is where the heart is
but with the advent of the modern communications,
and globalisation ,
home is anywhere and everywhere you can make yourself comfortable.
so much so that ,
i don't really miss home that much at all ...
i'm not even homesick ...
in fact ,
i've fallen in love with
beijing,
this beautiful ancient city
where the old stands next to the new
where east meets west
where the rich and the poor live just one street apart
abrupt ending as this is
gotta run !
Viva La Vida !!
~
aiky
aiky wrote in white | 10:04 AM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
yet another till dawn karaoke session,
it's fun while you're there,
the after effect is er,
not something enjoyable ...
haha ...
and the best part is we're ALL working today ...
but hell , working might be boring and sian already but with just over a month left to go ...
i shan't waste my energy thinking about it ...
instead i needa go enjoy myself to the fullest
so many things i wanna see ,
so many things i wanna do ,
so many things i wanna buy .
wahahahaha , my brain is so not working properly */zombie mode*
while i'm still in this state , i just wanna say that ...
love hurts.
i know it's not meant to be , but i can't just stop loving you on a whim.
not when i really have feelings for you.
not when i really care for you.
you've made your decision and nothing's gonna change your mind.
in my mind i respect that and will try my very best to just let go.
but in my heart, my love for you just can't seem to die.
i have no regrets doing everything i did for you.
my only regret is that i didn't do more.
and that i didn't get to know you well enough.
命中注定爱上你
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 12:47 PM
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
"memory is a way of holding on to the things you love , the things you are , the things you never want to lose"
memories are the one thing that no one can ever take away from you .
till the day you depart this world ,
everything you ever did ,
everything you ever felt ,
will remain with you.
memories of the sweet,
memories of the bitter.
memories of the good times,
memories of the bad.
memories of the people you loved.
memories of the people you hated.
memories of what you hold dear,
memories of what you fear.
our paths they did cross , though i cannot say just why.we met , we laughed , we held on tight , and then we'll soon say goodbye.memories of life.
this will all soon be just another memory.
a memory just as precious as the rest.
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 9:59 PM
