the secret of the world ; is written in the stars

Monday, September 29, 2008

thoughts going through my head at 2 in the morning

woots F1 is over ...

i never did understand it anyway ...
seeing the same car go around the same track 61 times ...
lol !!

fell asleep at the earliest time ever in recent history ... 8.30pm.

damn tired ... mentally and physically ...

haha ...

but the feeling is good ... really good ... it's the good sort of tired ...

been thinking quite a bit ...
quite a number of things i've talked about with my friends ...
and the things that have happened ...

have set me thinking along other paths ...
there's always another path ... just that we never think about it ...
or should i say ... we choose not to think about it ...

such is human desire ...

what we want most ... will control how we think ... and the actions we take ...

i think i kinda overreact especially when it comes to people i care about ...
and when things get beyond my control ...
i try too hard to attempt to try to get a hold of the situation ...
but as i said ... things are already beyond my control ...
but i'm already acting before i've thought through on a course of action ...
and set things in motion that no one is prepared for ...

yes, i just want to show that i care for my loved ones ...
but they may not necessarily see it that way ...
i do realize that ...
and for someone who claims to have an excellent command of the english language ...
i guess i really suck at expressing myself ...

but i just wanted to say to all my friends and loved ones ...
i do care
perhaps ... you might not see it that way ...
or perhaps i'm not expressing myself in ways you understand and all ...
but i really do ...

i'ma gonna catch more sleep ... catch ya all in the morning :)

~aiky

aiky wrote in white | 2:35 AM