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Saturday, November 22, 2008

i might be crazy

just realized that out of the so many bloggers out there i know ...
i'm the only one still crazy enough to continue writing full length posts rather often ...
everyone else can't be bothered anymore ...
or else they've changed blog URL's and no one's telling :x
oh wellssssss
or else ... it's rather emotional stuff ...
though i think it's a rather good place to channel your thoughts and feelings ...
sometimes you just need a place to vent out your feelings ...
when telling people how you feel just doesn't feel right ...
or there's no one to listen ...
well there ARE friends who will listen .. but you'd feel bad ALWAYS pouring out the same things to the same friends right ?
i know i do .
sometimes i just shut up..
better to suffer in silence than to make others suffer with you.
that's why blogs are such convenient outlets.
you don't know who will read ... but at least you know if people read .... they do care ...
even if they don't ask you or tell you about it ...

recently i'm back in the messed up frame of mind again ...
the one whereby i'm hopelessly inadequate ...
sometimes i wonder who i really am ?

to some i appear to be the always happy always smiling guy :
but i believe these people hardly know me ...

to some i appear to be the confident, arrogant asshole :
these people might know me better ?

to some i appear to be this dude ... who has issues :
well ... they know me too ...

to some i appear to be easily infatuated and always having some crush or other :
well that is me too ...

and the list just goes on ...
i'm a different person to everyone ...
so much so ... i don't know who i am anymore ...

so who am i really ?

aiky wrote in white | 5:57 AM