Thursday, November 27, 2008
lost in my own world ... and you're not invited ... for now
these few days ... i've just been going through the motions of life ...
there's no actual life to it ...
just waiting for time to pass ...
i'm not thinking about anything ...
i'm not caring about anything ...
by now you'd probably think that i'm like that over some girl
for the record . i'm not .
haven't even thought about even girls other than when just shooting bull ...
i've really come to the point where everything has lost meaning ?
i need some time to recalibrate.
i just stare at my screen, and wonder what's going to happen next.
i turn on my music ...
it's just something playing in the background.
i watch an episode of something ...
i turn it off halfway ...
i read a novel ...
i fall asleep after but a few pages ...
i work on something in photoshop ...
i spend a few hours on the same thing that should take me mere minutes ...
or i just simple fall asleep again ...
ct's are coming ... everyone is busy studying ?!
sorry, but i've never been a mugger ...
always been too lazy to study that much more for just a minor difference in grades ...
when it is sufficient to get what i want ... i'm not going to care more ...
and how many times can you read the text before you understand the damn thing ?
it's not as if these things DON'T make sense . they make perfect sense.
if just a tad too technical.
lots of charts too ... haha
MIS - Really it's all about managing Information .
IES - Project Management in a Nutshell . Encompasses HR and some other things.
WBA - Wireless Devices and the Infrastructure
MEB - Online E-Commerence
Well ... what do ya know ... I actually remember what all the modules are about ...
At this time in the morning no less ...
Perhaps I shall drag myself to go find the notes for all these later today ...
Speaking of today ... there's gonna be NAPFA later ...
But I haven't trained for nuts ...
So I am totally not prepared ...
Don't really feel like going ...
And I actually need a haircut ...
For the photo their gonna take tomorrow ...
That's gonna be on my "Green IC" and Army Ez-Link Card ...
During my medical ...
Yes ... The Medical for National Service ...
28th November 2008, 0800
Central Manpower Base
Another milestone in this life.
In other relavant news ...
There are some tensions that are about to erupt .
And I say that perhaps IT is time for them too .
I am also going one step futher to say this ;
Everyone is at fault.
It always takes two hands to clap.
I would point out what everyone has done wrong.
But it would not be nice to air these things on so Public a domain.
Instead, I'll just list down what I myself feel I've done wrongly.
If you think that I've not done wrong, feel free to let me know.
Firstly , I've always been slack.
More so than others.
This semester , I've chosen to take the Laid-Back Approach.
I'm not going to work myself to the ground this entire semester.
I know I've also not been focused.
There is no drive at all.
For this I blame no one but myself.
And you can blame this on me.
Secondly, As Team Leader . ( Frankly I Have Qualms About Whether I Have The Right Stuff)
But as i was saying, as the Leader of this group,
I pretty much have failed to :
Communicate Effectively
Take Initative
Take Control of Situations
Plan and Meet Deadlines on Target and On Focus
For all these, I shall bear the responsiblity.
On the Team as a Whole, we have failed in the following ways I feel.
- Coming up with Solutions to answer the Projects.
I feel that many a time, the solutions are my solutions, polished by the group, and presented.
Do correct me if I'm wrong on this point.
As a Group Project, I feel that the others should challenge my Solutions.
Come up with Alternatives and from there we can work out a better overall solution.
- Just merely Completing the Parts we assigned ourselves.
We are always talking about adding value, and I don't see why we can't implement this when working in projects. I don't mean adding EVERYTHING nor IRRELEVANT stuff. I mean, while working on your part, you think about something related that you FEEL is related and should be added in, jsut add it in. If the others feel it's not relevant, we can debate and discuss on the issue.
That's what learning is about no ?
- Always Wanting To Head Home to Work on Individual Parts.
Yes . I know we all love home. And we all have social lives. But I'm a big believer in Sitting Down together as a Group to work together. You may argue that that is not your way of doing things. Ever wonder why Business Meeting are conducted face to face ? Why not just have everyone Conference over the Phone or Vid-Phones ? It's just different . The Synergy from a Face to Face Session can't be matched. Than again ... This is a personal style .
For now, I can' think of anything more to say ... There is so much more than this I know.
Some Goals I Hope to Achieve After This Own Reflection of Mine :
Start on Projects Earlier.
Communicate More Effectively with Everyone Else.
Taking More Initiative.
Try to Stay More Focused. Try.
I ask that everyone reflect on themselves.
If you're going to say that you're not in the wrong.
And it's the others who should reflect.
Than I have nothing to say.
Humans are just that. No ONE is perfect.
~aiky
aiky wrote in white | 7:13 AM
