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Monday, December 8, 2008

I'm turning my head up and down . I'm turning turning turning turning turning around

holy crap ... i just slept my way past today ...
slept slothed sloshed

damn today's good weather ... so perfect for sleeping ...
*looks longingly at bed*

but NO . i HAVE to study .
IES is no joke.

actually got some thinking done.
was thinking of forgetting some things.
letting some friendships go ...
somehow the price to pay for maintaining them is just too high ...
if you're reading this ... prob no ... it's not you ...
cause only people closer to me would even know this exisits ...
no wait ... only less than fifty people know of this blog's existence ...
so ... not really alot of people ... of these fifty , i'm sure many have stopped coming ...
but it's alright ... i've finally realised that ... what i want for this blog is for me to remember how i lived my days ...
recently blog writing has all but died out ... used to spend an hour each day blog hopping to see whats happening ... nowadays ... blog hopping once a week is more than enough ...
yeah sure ... everyone is busy ... with life ... studying and god knows what else ...
but it really doesn't take that long to write a few lines does it ?
and taking time out to express yourselves for a bit ...
i don't think it's that much of a chore or time consuming right ?
in fact as i write this out ... my head is starting to clear actually

so anyway ... i was saying ... prob time to burn some bridges and build new ones ...
some of these bridges really lead now-where
and yet i'm still worried about the friends on the other sides of these bridges ...
well ... someone's gotta look out for me too right.
i pick myself.
i can't worry for so many people when i can't even take care of my own affairs.
selfish as that may sound. i think that's what got me into this sorry state i'm in, in the first place.
i care too much for others ... and more often than not ... i seriously doubt it's reciprocated.

friends come and go ... time for some to go

And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

aiky wrote in white | 7:02 PM