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Monday, March 16, 2009

the ghost of you and me

it's been a while , exactly a month since i last wrote an entry
than again , it's not exactly fair to say it's a full month cause Feb has but 28 days ... hahaha

fine it's been more than a month since i wrote last entry ... lols

to be honest , i've been putting off blogging for quite some time for quite a number of reasons ...
of course ... the only real reason is cause i'm plain lazy ;)

ask me what i've done in the past month ; nothing really productive really
took the last exam i'll ever take in NP on the 27th of Feb at 2PM

the feeling of relief after finishing that paper ... can't really be described
and the looks of joy of having finished our 3 years in Ngee Ann Poly were evident on everyone's faces

so at that moment in time we'd unofficially Graduated ,
and closed yet another chapter in the story of our lives

some people will make guest appearances here and there in later chapters
some people will continue to make regular appearances in the next few chapters
some people will be right there in main roles
some people , i'll just say goodbye, farewell and best wishes for the last time come graduation day.

looking back , the past 3 years have been really eventful
and everything has made me into the person I am now
no doubt many things have changed me for the better
but some things have made me regress even more

first year was where we all started
and whether for better or for worse
where we first met each other
we had lots of good times, hardly any bad times
lectures , tutorials , they were all so much fun

second year was when things started to mess up
all good things come to an end ?
yeah they do.
admittedly , i still believe it was quite my fault ...
but after all's been said and done ... lets just leave it at that
so many things happened ...

third year was a whirlwind of events
spent the first half of the year doing my attachment in Beijing
i pretty much immersed myself in life there ...
never really thinking much of the life i left behind here ...
i've never really written my story of life over there ... and i don't intend to start now either
second half of third year ... was a mess of projects ...
which i believe is fresh on everyone's minds
so nothing much more i shall say

truly , the last ~~two~~ four weeks have given me lots of time to think through
and even than , there's still plenty more reflection to do ...

i've still not sorted out the mess that is what do i really want to do after NS ...
sure i'm applying for University and all
most likely doing Business at either NUS (if they want me) or SMU (if i get in)
but what do i really want to do after that ?

for the first time in what seems like forever
i was actually feeling down , due to nothing more than inactivity rather than anything else
everyone knows my problem with the fairer sex ... but sometimes it's just best not to bother too much ...

what will be will be ... even though happiness is for you to achieve ...

the date of this posting is of that of two weeks ago ... so i'll just finish this part right here ...
and write a new post for the two weeks after this date ... haha ...

it should be more interesting i suppose

aiky wrote in white | 12:05 AM