the secret of the world ; is written in the stars

Sunday, June 28, 2009

3 down , many many more to go !

2nd bookout ,

it's been a rather slack week , due to some issues ...
i felt like i wasted half my time in camp ...
which is somewhat true ...

been zoning out alot since i booked out ...
as if i've got nothing on my mind to even think about ...
or perhaps i've just denying it ...

ht told me :
" when you think of nothing , you're really thinking of something you're trying not to think of "

i guess that might be true , but at this point in time , my mind is still drawing a huge blank.

3 weeks into NS , and i've realized so many things ,
about what my friends have been talking about ,
i've always chided them for being negative and all ,
but as an NSF now , what they've been talking about has come back to haunt me ,
as i myself now harbour thoughts similar to theirs ,
try as i might ,
everyday is a battle between trying to be positive and do my best
or being negative and just trying to get along with the program .

when you're really tired , sometimes , you just want things to get over and done with.

in other news ,
find out some things i'd rather not have found out , or rather would rather have heard the information from other sources , but what will be , will still be , so there ...
can't say i'm not disappointed that i was left out of the loop and just left to my own devices to find out about it though ...

booking-in again tmr.
time to once again be isolated from the outside world.

the basis of life can be summarised in three words. it goes on .

aiky wrote in white | 9:09 AM