you don't have to understand it , just feel it music knows no boundaries
aiky wrote in white | 5:19 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
the 4th day ...
technically the 3rd since monday night shouldn't count by default but yes , i'm still feeling the edges of this bout of sickness the fever is gone . as of tuesday night . but the cough and body ache and tiredness is all still there ... haven't done anything at all that can be considered productive ...
been sleeping the days away ... basically , rotting .
never thought i'd say this , but i really miss training . but based on the rumor mill , things in there aren't exactly in the best of conditions now too ...
thanks to everyone for the well-wishes really appreciate it (:
aiky wrote in white | 9:32 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
how bad can this get ?
so i'm out of Tekong after slightly more than 24 hours there. 5 days attend c . which means i book in on sunday night. down with fever . cough . and what not .
didn't even get to finish my range . although some knowledge is public . much cannot be disclosed . so i'll just leave it at that .
gonna spend the next few days trying to do some productive things at home . and resting well , and hopefully recover fully in time for field camp .
aiky wrote in white | 9:34 AM
Friday, July 10, 2009
so near yet so far
and yet another week has passed ... though time seemed to never move while on Tekong , truth is time did move , and the weekend has come yet again ...
although yet again , i've not planned for anything this weekend cause in camp , you've only got time to think about what's tomorrow or just not thinking at all ...
the moon over Tekong has been beautiful this past week , bright , round and oh so near.
an inspiration for a poem , truly.
so near ; yet so far
a night like this, many there are not. with the moon so near, and the stars so bright.
the sound of waves crashing, the flocks of birds flying. upon this island, we call tekong.
i sit and wonder , while the others yabber. i think of you, like i've always had.
i remember once, when looking up. the night sky that i see, would the sunny skies you bask under.
you were so far, yet so near.
now whenever i look up, the night sky that i see, is the same night sky you gaze upon, yet somehow it's different now.
you are so near, yet so far.
what separates us, will forever be time, and space.
i am here, and you are there.
though we're both here, in our Singapore, it feels more like, i'm somewhere far away.
so near, yet so far.
i guess by now , most of my readers have disappeared just as most of the people i used to talk to have disappeared it's not unusual , it's just life. people just move on. i guess i have sort of come to terms with it. than again, i'm too tired to even bother. much as i miss the times gone by. their just that. times gone by.
the past week has been a very very tiring one. by far the most tiring one so far. and it can only get worst.
started off with a route march on Monday. 3+ Klick's , we estimated closer to 4 cause OC took us on an extended march through School 1. FBO without Long 4. It felt good as we were still fresh from the weekend.
Tuesday had AC again, and the last BCCT lesson. Which was really a "test" of all that we learned. The rundown really really intense, and burned us all. It was that tiring !
Wednesday was Day 1 of IFC. Welcome to the Jungle they said.
Put on Camo for the first time. Not a completely enjoyable experience. It was pretty much like something out of Army Daze. Sgt Alex just said , you have 10 mins to go into the Jungle , and put all sorts of leaves and whatshit on yourself. Than all hell broke loose. It was really quite funny !
Learnt about Group Fire and Movement , was rather interesting , something more "Army" to most of our school of thoughts. but for all that , it was DAMN TIRING. and we would have done more training if not for a CAT 1 ! xD
Had a lesson on Field Signals after that in the comfort of a training shed ! ^^
Thursday was Day 2 of IFC , Spent the morning learning to build a basha, followed by Ranging and Arc of Fire.
Spent the afternoon in the light Jungle following Sgt Alex through the outskirts of the jungle practicing Field Signals , it was damn funny when Zi Li "Hollanded" and led a section worth of men in the wrong direction.
Again , training ended rather quickly due to another CAT 1 . But we're all praying for ZERO Cat 1's during our field camp.
Today we had route march again , 4 klick's with the same FBO without Long 4. This time for some reason, it was even more tiring than Monday's route march. Perhaps our bodies are already dead tired from a week's worth of activity.
Today is also bookout day and PAY DAY !! (:
But other than that . Life sucks.
i want nobody, nobody but you. but you don't know that, do you.
aiky wrote in white | 11:51 PM
Saturday, July 4, 2009
and it all seems to go downhill ...
my life outside ns that is.
everything's going on fine in the Army. training is revving up , and although it's tough to keep up , i'm doing my best to keep up. thus far , i haven't fallen out yet , and come next week , i should be back to 100% with my throat healed up and my aches , rested , i hope :d
the past week has been a rather slack/tough short periods of intense training and many short rest periods or one long period of intense training followed by long periods of rest of course rest isn't really rest , but time for Area Cleaning.
we missed one route march on Thursday afternoon because of a Cat 1 , which is a warning for thunderstorms or bad weather.
Route March on Tuesday IPPT on Thursday and Friday's AC and ST back-to-back combo were the most intense periods of the week. Not to mention BCCT with Rifle on Tuesday and Friday.
but i toughed it out , and hope to continue toughing it out over the next few weeks which will prove to be a test of endurance , with Range , Field Camp and SIT Tests coming up.
Coming on on Monday will be another Route March with FBO without Long 4 if I'm not wrong. Well , at least our LBV's are not fully loaded with Mag's and stuff.
I realise that I've used quite an amount of lingo , so I'll explain some of them.
AC : Aerobic Conditioning - A walk/job with increasing distance and pace over the duration of BMT. Thus far , we are at jogging.
ST : Strength Training - Circuit Training with various exercises to train different muscles
BCCT : Basic Close Combat Training - Unarmed Combat , or Combat with the Rifle when it's out of bullets or the enemy is too close.
FBO : Full Battle Order - Everything you take into battle. Duh. Long 4 , LBV , Field Pack , Rifle and godknows what else.
LBV : Load-Bearing Vest - The vest where all your stuff is hung around in pounches for (supposedly) easy access. Includes pouches for Spare Magazines , Grenades , Water Bottles , Torchlight , SOG , and so on.
but enough about the army. because that's exactly what's killing my life outside of NS.
ever since enlistment like , 4 weeks ago ? my social life has been slowly dying. and about this week , it just totally died out. i've spoken to less than 5 people who are not from my Coy this weekend , my family not included.
when i first started NS , i thought that , hey , there will be lots of of friends out there who'll be around if i need someone to talk too , or who'll be free to just chill out with ... and my whole mindset towards NS was all positive ... but frankly , with the reduced communication , it's bloody impossible to feel the same closeness that was there before NS.
basically , almost the entire world forgot about my existence. it's not like they did it on purpose. but humans are like that. what's here and now in front of you , will be more forefront in your thoughts , will be more important. out of sight , out of mind, well , i just happen to fall into that category.
and the world never seemed so foreign than right now ...
aiky wrote in white | 7:45 AM
My Life
aiky.eggy
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vsChoir '02-'05
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To describe myself in a few sentences is impossible
Let's just leave it at that
Music is my life cause my life is music
The beat of the drum in my heart
