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Saturday, July 4, 2009

and it all seems to go downhill ...

my life outside ns that is.

everything's going on fine in the Army.
training is revving up ,
and although it's tough to keep up , i'm doing my best to keep up.
thus far , i haven't fallen out yet , and come next week ,
i should be back to 100% with my throat healed up and my aches , rested , i hope :d

the past week has been a rather slack/tough
short periods of intense training and many short rest periods
or one long period of intense training followed by long periods of rest
of course rest isn't really rest , but time for Area Cleaning.

we missed one route march on Thursday afternoon because of a Cat 1 ,
which is a warning for thunderstorms or bad weather.

Route March on Tuesday
IPPT on Thursday
and Friday's AC and ST back-to-back combo were the most intense periods of the week.
Not to mention BCCT with Rifle on Tuesday and Friday.

but i toughed it out , and hope to continue toughing it out over the next few weeks
which will prove to be a test of endurance , with Range , Field Camp and SIT Tests coming up.

Coming on on Monday will be another Route March with FBO without Long 4 if I'm not wrong.
Well , at least our LBV's are not fully loaded with Mag's and stuff.

I realise that I've used quite an amount of lingo ,
so I'll explain some of them.

AC : Aerobic Conditioning
- A walk/job with increasing distance and pace over the duration of BMT.
Thus far , we are at jogging.

ST : Strength Training
- Circuit Training with various exercises to train different muscles

BCCT : Basic Close Combat Training
- Unarmed Combat , or Combat with the Rifle when it's out of bullets or the enemy is too close.

FBO : Full Battle Order
- Everything you take into battle. Duh. Long 4 , LBV , Field Pack , Rifle and godknows what else.

LBV : Load-Bearing Vest
- The vest where all your stuff is hung around in pounches for (supposedly) easy access. Includes pouches for Spare Magazines , Grenades , Water Bottles , Torchlight , SOG , and so on.

but enough about the army.
because that's exactly what's killing my life outside of NS.

ever since enlistment like , 4 weeks ago ?
my social life has been slowly dying.
and about this week , it just totally died out.
i've spoken to less than 5 people who are not from my Coy this weekend , my family not included.

when i first started NS ,
i thought that ,
hey , there will be lots of of friends out there
who'll be around if i need someone to talk too ,
or who'll be free to just chill out with ...
and my whole mindset towards NS was all positive ...
but frankly , with the reduced communication ,
it's bloody impossible to feel the same closeness
that was there before NS.

basically , almost the entire world forgot about my existence.
it's not like they did it on purpose.
but humans are like that.
what's here and now in front of you ,
will be more forefront in your thoughts ,
will be more important.
out of sight , out of mind,
well , i just happen to fall into that category.

and the world never seemed so foreign than right now ...

aiky wrote in white | 7:45 AM