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Sunday, January 24, 2010

new directions

i seem to be going through my life,
at this point of time that is,
in a huge circle.

i seem to be going through almost the same ups and downs each week
sure, some weeks it's better, but others it's just bad.
my creative inspirations seem to have left me.
and i miss them so very much.

i guess , i'm going to have to make an effort to relight those fires.
otherwise, it's just gonna take a heck load more effort in future.

i've had some inspiration from some blogs,
their sayings provoke quite an amount of thinking.

and hey , imitation is the best sort of praise.
so with inspiration from " http://pleasefindthis.blogspot.com/ "
i shall attempt to start something like it.

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in ns life,
nothing much has changed.

amazingly manged to break my ET stick during Exercise on Monday.
shows how bad the terrain was for shellscrape digging.
even PC and PS didn't bother to dig.
but for the upcoming MajorEx , gotta do something about it.

Tues and Wed passed by in a blur.
most of us were to shag to remember much.

Wed and Thur COCC Parade Rehearsal went by in a blur.
didn't participate and hence got a arrowed for lots of saikang.
bleah.

Friday
rained the entire morning, which meant a morning of rest.
COCC Parade started at 6pm.
which meant that bookout was rather late.
reached home too tired to do much.

Sat
met up with ht and finally shane after sooooo long
was great to catch up.
met some of the other serve cambo ppl for siew wai's 21st bday
managed to catch the last train home.

Sun
today - spent most of the day resting.
back acting up again ...

on a side note , realized that this year is the 21st bdays of those born in my year ...
while most are planning parties and stuff ...
i think i'm just gonna disappear on my 21st ...
ok ... i can't really disappear ... cause i'll be in camp on the day itself ...
but i'll just pass this year as quietly as possible ...
afterall ... being in ns ... it's not exactly the most joyful thing eh ?

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been thinking about one singular decision that i made last year ...
like ht said ... it'll be my biggest regret of 2009 ...
and i brushed it off back then ...
but indeed it HAS become my biggest regret ...

i made the wrong decision for the right reason ...
but why doesn't that make me feel any better ?
because i guess , sometimes ,
you gotta do the wrong things for the right reason.

some opportunities only come once in a lifetime.
blink and it's gone.
i blinked. and now she's gone.

aiky wrote in white | 6:48 PM