Sunday, July 25, 2010
just put the blame on me
it's really silly that i refuse to talk to anyone about this ,
yet brood over it.
truth is , even if i talked to anyone , the answers i'd get
are no different from what i already have in my head.
the answers to my questions , their all right there.
it's whether or not i choose to accept them, or act as i should.
it sure is hard to control how one feels.
theory and practical have always been very different.
it's easy to advise someone to do something.
but difficult for yourself to practice what you preach.
so i'm saying this.
put the blame on me.
i blame myself for putting my priority on you.
i blame myself for doing all those silly things i did.
i blame myself for nursing that crush on you.
i blame myself for mistaking any of your actions as possible signs of interest.
and as a friend , i blame myself for being such a lousy friend to have thought of all these.
maybe it's for the better.
maybe.
but for now. i guess i've made up my mind.
aiky wrote in white | 9:35 AM